Disheartened

First day back at training after recovering from fever. Felt so weak. Everything seemed heavier. And my burpees was only at 75. Really found it tough to smile just now. Even my deadlift is wrong! What's happening?! Never imagined one week off training to do so much damage. Really not sure how long I'll take to lose 10 kg. Can someone console me please? I need lots of motivation, love and encouragement. Stop nagging for goodness sake! Affirmation is the way to go. My heart is so broken now. I really want to cut this fat badly. I feel like I've to start all over again, strengthening and building up the muscles.

Downtime...

I've been sick the last couple of days. Cough, running nose, fever of 38 degrees. It's been a long time since this happened. Usually it's only a flu bug and gone within a week. This dragged for 2 weeks before erupting into the above. This virus is spreading round the office. It even sounded like a symphonic band on Tue! All the sneezing and coughing.... I used up half a roll of toilet roll to clear my running nose overnight! Had a day of rest yesterday and it was a good one. Today I was back at the office, feeling better and the fever has gone down a little. Thanks to plenty of water, lemons and big jug of chrysantemum! Here's what it looks like! So much water! Oops forgot to add, "EAT MORE VEG" too!I am also taking fish oils everyday to curb my pimples. I want them gone before Chinese New Year starts!
Weighed just now and it reads 61.2!!! Wow... it's amazing what sickness can do to weightloss. I pray it's not muscle loss. I am eating as normal. Adhering to the eating habits (even though everything tastes so bland with my tastebuds on strike!). I am craving badly for chicken wings and peanut butter. Can't wait to hit the hawker centre soon after I get well!

Training will resume next week. I have decided to take this week off. So far, my weight has not gone up due to the lack of it. Coach kept egging me to stay active, do cycling, walking.... He's not getting me off the hook so easily, haha! Stay healthy everyone, and... EAT YOUR VEG!

Found an old photo...

Was tidying up my files on my computer and came across an old photo. I closed my eyes as I clicked on the file... Opened one eye.... Ewwwww! I was at my biggest size in that photo @ 83 - 85kg. Can you see any neck up there?!! (I don't!) Cropped out the picture of the bride (this was taken at a wedding) so that the comparison would not be seen, lol. This is really going to set the tone for the weeks to come, leading up to Chinese New Year. Stay alongside me as I face this challenge!

New Beginnings

Happy New Year to All! It's been way long since I've updated my blog! But don't think I've been slacking alright? After 4 buffets, bbq, and steamboat dinner, my current weight is 62.5kg. Oh well, could have been better if not for the feasts.

Took my measurements last week, here it is:

Arm: L30 (-6cm), R31 (-4cm)
Thigh: L50 (-5.3cm) R51 (-7.4) Seems more balanced now.
Waist: 81 (-7cm)
Hips: 100 (-5cm)
Shoulders :44 

This week only trained twice. Down with flu and some muscle twitching in the legs. It feels weird. As if there's a train running underground the skin. I can see it move!!! Ewwww...
Thought I can rest for a week, coach says NO! COME BACK ON MON/TUE! Fine fine fine. Not even a rest actually! He says to brisk walk 30 min today. Tsk.